What it Means to Be Free

Awaiting a Democratic Hong Kong

I made a t-shirt, and i always planned to send them to a few people. One of which is in China. I realized I couldn’t send it to him because it had a picture of Zhao Ziyang on it. A man who has been written out of history. A man who in death as in life symbolized a reformist open China. My friend can’t wear that T-shirt. He probably shouldn’t even own one in his apartment.

Two months ago, someone I know’s site was banned in China. Considering he was in China, he couldn’t see it while the rest of us could. He asked me what I thought and I said that he recently posted the most subversive of all his posts up. He talked about a journalist deported and her interviewee arrested. He said he didn’t think they were reading, but in retrospect he could see why but he wasn’t thinking at the time.

I replied, "Thats because we grew up in the free world. The only people we fear would read our  thoughts and censure us were our parents, lovers, and employers."

And even then, had they, in the case of. They would be in the wrong for breaking into our privacy, and acting up due to our thoughts.

I am thinking about it because I had a conversation about how to interview Chinese people when the Chinese people who we most like to hear from cannot speak least we get them arrested. I suggested using Chinese people abroad. People not in the mainland. In Hong Kong, in the US, in Australia. Places that we can speak freely.

I wish my friend can wear my T-shirt. I wish I don’t even have to make it. I wish we could interview people in China. Sometimes I wish that I can stop making Glutter. But I can’t because Glutter is my small contribution to making my wish come true. I am afraid if I stop, if it never ever happens, I will wonder if I did enough.

Published by Yan Sham-Shackleton

Yan Sham-Shackleton is a Hong Kong writer who lives in Los Angeles. This is her old blog Glutter written mostly in Hong Kong from 2003 to 2007. Although it was a personal blog, Yan focused a lot on free speech issues and democratic movement in Hong Kong. She moved to the US in 2007.

3 thoughts on “What it Means to Be Free

  1. If you’d really like to help out people in China, please consider publishing a full RSS feed (and not just an abbreviated one). That way, they can at least read your blog using a RSS aggregator such as Bloglines.

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  2. I am sorry if you’re not and it’s a misunderstanding but if you’re DC. I am not kidding, I really don’t want you contributing into my site. Okay? If I could, I would not let you read my site at all. This is right up your alley. Telling people what they should do and thinking it’s helpful because you know best.
    “If you REALLY want to help Chinese people.” I don’t need your advice how to help my own people and I don’t apreciating being insinuated I am not. Go away Doug. I can’t stand you. And to be honest “They,” can’t read it because it’s in English. Go away. I told you that already.

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