Some Thoughts About Being the Loser

Socio-political Rants/ Awaiting a Democratic Hong Kong

Sometimes in life you lose. It sucks. I know. When the Hong Kong elections went the way it did. I was speechless. I had one conversation about it that morning and when it all sunk in. I never spoke about it again. I couldn’t. Glutter was incredibly silent on the issue if you care to remember. I made one post about the system. Then I researched the system, after a while, I realized how dire the situation was, and didn’t want to write about it again.

After the results came in I got really really drunk for a week. Moby has threatened to be drunk for the next four years. Except I think he doesn’t actually drink. But maybe he will start. I also hid a lot of my despair behind something personal, so I didn’t have to admit or face the fact, nor explain some of my dearly held dreams for two years were shattered to tiny little bits.

But some things I did not do. I did not say I was ashamed of my people, I did not say I was embarrassed for my city. I didn’t threaten to move out of the place. I let it sink in that over one in three, 40 plus percent of people didn’t think the way I did, and there were plenty more who couldn’t be bothered to vote even if that election was also the “most important election in our lifetime.” You had a referendum on Bush. We had one on DEMOCRACY. And we lost. Spectacularly. I admitted maybe the other side did a good job. Maybe better then we did. And I accepted that the truth was, my views were far more radical then centralist, and therefore it’s not going to get the landslide support we thought we would.

While I am at it. Let me tell you.. the people I supported acted like complete fuckwits. REALLY. Martin Lee cried and said something really daft I don’t even want to quote. My constituent, Hong Kong Island, lost a “sure” seat because of a bad tactical move. I had to listen to Christine Loh, speak to many a foreign paper and write many an article spreading her upper middle class elitism all over the place. She called Hong Kong voters “irresponsible” for voting in “Long Hair” a radical protester as legislator. I thought she sounded like a sore loser. Since then, as much as I find him amusing, my more serious political side finds him embarrassing each time he does another publicity stunt. Yeah, but you know, not until now I have said a word. I didn’t point fingers and blame the candidates. I didn’t throw tantrums all over the internet.

And a hell of a lot of people are doing that from the Liberal Progressive side in the US right now. The very side of people who taught me my politics, the kind of people who were my professors and friends.

I read comments and listened to the phone in on the BBC, some other places, the giant liberal blogs, some of the articles on Salon, and a few blogs there that I usually feel are mature and sensible and I think, “We’re being a little bit over dramatic don’t you think over a 3.5 million difference? That’s half the population of HK, thats the size of LA city (not country). That’s 3% in popular votes. Reading them, you would think the democrats has been squished to the corner stone of being radical left, persecuted under McCarthy rather than being 48% of all voters winning 252 electoral votes . (Minority = Nadar)

So anyway, I wanted to say something about being a loser. It sucks. It hurts. Its embarrassing for one self too because what you believed is so wrong and EVERYONE knows it now.

But pointing fingers and splattering it all around makes it look exactly like the “pansies” the right so rudely paints people as. Weak, soft, can’t stand by principals, splintered and lost. Can’t even stand behind one’s own candidate, and turning on him the second he doesn’t win it for ya. Honestly, if I didn’t have such strong political opinions and I was in the middle. If I read the outpouring of whine, it would probably sway me to the other side next time. People want to be in a team with a bit of em… backbone (as someone wrote on this blog.) Not that the other side would have faired better if the scenario was turned in the attack of the winner (look what they did to Clinton), but they would never so viciously turned against their own (but who wants to be compared to the other’s side lowest common denominator?). They would make Bush their hero, misunderstood and not listened to. It’s okay to be depressed, but not defeatist, be disappointed but going on a attacking spree is unbecoming.

And Yeah, it really goes a long way to any cause when the people one need to woo next time hears that the otherside are ashamed and embarrassed of them for being so stupid. Call them “rednecks” “radical right,” “people who vote with their hearts and not heads,” “voted out of fear,” “misunderstood the issues,” “mislead,” “not aware,” “don’t see,” “don’t get it,” “have no idea of the world,” “bullies,” “selfish,” “blind.”

Sure some of them probably are, but a lot of people voted what they believed in, what they saw as the “right thing,” in the most well meaning way that came from a different paradigm. They went out and voted, some of them stood in line for hours, some voted for the first time. And oh, because they didn’t vote democrat, they get slammed in pretty insulting ways. No wonder they think liberals are a bunch of elitist snobs. I read somewhere on the BBC when a Bush supporter said, “People say those who voted for Kerry is more educated and more intelligent. But who needs a PhD or a masters? But this is coming from someone unintelligent and don’t know anything about the world.”

I felt bad for that person you know. He got told his choice was dumb. He got told he was dumb. Surely I would side with the side that makes me feel good about myself. Not the people who look down on me. And if none of you noticed. Most people don’t go to college, and even less get masters and doctorates. I find the whole Hong Kong democratic movement stinking of snobbery every second. I know I am the exact demographic of people who would vote for them. So what? I know if I want to win, we better explain our point of view to the people who don’t understand and not alienate them but bring them onto our side by educating them to liberal ideals and ideas.

And you know what? Bush is good. When I watched the debates, I was more than a little humbled by the fact I thought he was dumb. He might be a liar, he might even be deluded, arrogant, extreme, but he spoke like a great communicator and a good leader. Not that Kerry was bad, Bush was better. He was quick, he stood his ground, he attacked the weak points of his opponents and repeated it again and again. Bush probably was one of the best speakers I have seen in terms of getting what he wanted across. He’s on par with Clinton, which is why people loved him. There were times I thought, “If I didn’t know better, I would buy into what he has to say.”

And I wouldn’t be all upset about Europe. They want Americans to vote for Kerry. The real Europeans, they would never vote for someone so privileged and educated for their leaders either. They like the guy whose father was a grocery owner. They prefer the normal person on the street too for their own. If you look it’s not like European leaders are left of center anyway, some of them verge far right, -anti-immigrant, anti-muslim. The Brits being the biggest hypocrites of all, one, they went to war too, two it’s not like they have even been successful in changing the mind of their own leader. I don’t see Blair backing down from his “extra special friendship,” with Bush. And France and Germany had plenty a contract and interest in Iraq just waiting for the sanctions to lift. They complain when America won’t get involved, they complain whenever they don’t get their way. I just don’t see the Europeans being right over here on this side of the world, ready and willing to help Asia, nor Africa especially when they colonized nearly all these two places. They are equally selfish, self righteous, self serving.

Belgium pulled troops out of Rwanda (their former colony) during the genocide. France sat around doing nothing. They also sat around doing nothing in Bosnia in the UN safe zone they were in charge of, as men and boys were being rounded up and shot, 7500 of them in the end. The Dutch who were sharing the responsibilities were begging the French military to airstrike, but it was all denied etc.etc.etc. Cambodia? Another site for mass genocides this century. Who owned that? France?

While I am at it, don’t be so damn rude about Poland, and Japan, and the other “coalition forces.” I was with Bush on that, not that I don’t think many of them might be “coerced” but “coalition” simply means a group that are banded, and just because they aren’t the members of G8, doesn’t mean, harping on the fact they are unimportant is a good idea. (Wait… Japan is part of the G8)

I am getting a bit off topic now…

Good night. I am really sorry how much this lost feels for a lot of you. I wish it was another way, not only because of what I believe, but I know this is killing some of my friends. A lot of my friends in fact. I never saw a more depressed America as I did in the last year when I went back. I never saw my friends so disillusioned, broken and scared before. It all came down to Bush. But I related because that’s how I felt about Hong Kong. Well we all lost this year. (So did Australia, they got Howard.. but that didn’t surprise me and bummed me out too much to log that). It sucks, I hate it. But at least lose with a bit of grace, head held high, a bit of humor, and spend some time thinking. It’s not the end of the world. You get to vote in four more years, some people never get to.

(Thankfully, I finally came across two sensible non defeatist, none finger pointing, non insulting everyone at once posts. Jay who says, “Its time to get real,” and James who asks, “What are you going to do about it?” It’s nice to know people I like, keep their head on.)

Lates…

Published by Yan Sham-Shackleton

Yan Sham-Shackleton is a Hong Kong writer who lives in Los Angeles. This is her old blog Glutter written mostly in Hong Kong from 2003 to 2007. Although it was a personal blog, Yan focused a lot on free speech issues and democratic movement in Hong Kong. She moved to the US in 2007.

13 thoughts on “Some Thoughts About Being the Loser

  1. yan,
    i know what you mean. i live in ny and many people in my workplace have been somber, sniffling, and sometimes screaming yesterday.
    i’ve been keeping my mouth shut too.
    -rob

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  2. Wonderful piece, Yan.
    I’m just not a very big fan of self-pity – you’ve got the right attitude.
    BTW, I also plan on being drunk for the next four years, but that’s no big change…

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  3. Yan,
    This is a great post. I voted for Kerry, but the sad truth is that many times the left is viewed as bunch of elitist snobs because that’s the way we behave. You make a great comparison between the HK and US elections.
    p.s. I’ve lurked in the background reading your site for years. I am sure I’m not the demographic you consider your target reader, but I love your insight into HK. I lived in Taiwan for several years and worked in HK and miss the region. Your experience with China mirrors my wife’s (a NYC born and raised woman of Chinese ancestry). [I know that is a painfully politically correct definition, but in Taiwan I was afraid she would physically assault the next person to say “You’re not American, you’re Chinese”] Keep up the great writing.

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  4. Yeah this is a great post. I was thinking about how Howard won here in Australia and how Bush won in the states and I think you’re right about Bush being a great communicator. I’m as guilty as anyone when calling him stupid, but the truth is he is brilliant in some areas such as appealing to the common man. He’s got that twinkle in his eye, a bit of charisma and he seems to be very strong on where he stands. I can’t say the same of John Howard in terms of charisma, but the majority of people seem to love him now for being boring and appearing statesman like. I guess the losers have to get over trying to appear smarter than the other guy because it probably turns off a lot of voters who really don’t care. And you’re right, at least we get to vote in full elections, that’s a perspective I sometimes forget. I’ll never complain about compulsory voting in Australia ever again, I actually think it’s very important now, after hearing all about what goes on in Hong Kong and other places.

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  5. Good post Yan, especially Re: elitist liberal snobs. Sadly many of my peers (20-somethings who’ve had a liberal education in HK) fall into that category. The thing that irks me is that they’re not politically literate themselves. Their dabbling in politics is restricted to watching Michael Moore movies, clicking on the occasional BBC headline, repeating mantras like “it’s all about the oil” and sneering at Americans for being ‘fat’, ‘ugly’, ‘stupid’, whatever. Sadly that attitude is now pervasive on the left and it only serves to push moderates towards right-of-center parties.
    Socially I’m pretty liberal myself. On social issues such as abortion, capital punishment and gay rights I hold liberal views completely at odds with those of Bush. In the UK I voted for the Lib Dems last time around, which is just about as wishy-washy left wing as you can get. However if I could have voted in the US on Tuesday I would have voted for Bush. He recognises the importance of the threat to western security posed by Islamofascism and that just wipes away all other issues for me – and many other liberals (check out Andrew Sullivan’s blog – at least before he started wobbling).
    I’m delighted and relieved he won – sadly in the eyes of my peers that makes me a war-mongering, racist, homophobic, bible-bashing nazi. I hope the left and the Democrats learn from their mistakes and move in from the fringe and the Michael Mooreites – otherwise it’s finished and the Republicans are here to stay.

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  6. http://www.tompaine.com/articles/kerry_won_.php
    Bush won Ohio by 136,483 votes. In the United States, about 3 percent of votes cast are voided—known as “spoilage” in election jargon—because the ballots cast are inconclusive. Drawing on what happened in Florida and studies of elections past, Palast argues that if Ohio’s discarded ballots were counted, Kerry would have won the state. Today, the Cleveland Plain Dealer reports there are a total of 247,672 votes not counted in Ohio, if you add the 92,672 discarded votes plus the 155,000 provisional ballots. So far there’s no indication that Palast’s hypothesis will be tested because only the provisional ballots are being counted.

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  7. Ok, you know what? Fuck that “liberal elitist” bullshit. Because you know what? Liberal is my mom making clothes for pennies on the hour, my dad working twelve hour days to cook food for ungrateful suburbanites, striking to get paid decent wages and provide health insurance for his kids. Liberals are my junior high teachers striking for two months to get a work contract they’d been promised five years earlier. Liberals are me and my friends, most, if not all of us paying our own ways through college and stuck in crappy jobs still paying for our tuitions. I’m not denying that “liberal elitists” don’t exist, but they don’t make up the majority. Not even close.
    I know that’s not even what the main post is about, but I find the term “liberal elitist” really irritating. Other than that, yeah, Yan I agree, time to get moving.

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  8. Unlike seemingly almost everyone else on the internet, I don’t really have any great political insight -imagined or otherwise. But, like Rob, I guess I just wanted to let you know I really enjoyed this post and felt that it was great even more than usual
    Thanks 🙂

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  9. I just want to say to you that even if I’m French, I’ve heard about your weblog and I would help people of Hong-Kong to have a democracy.
    In France, we have a democratic government but we don’t know that we are lucky.
    Matthieu of Paris
    P.S : take my pardon, I’m only 14 and I just began to learn English. So, I think there are many mistakes in my message. Sorry.

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  10. This morning I woke up to hearing Colin Power say that now Bush has a mandate, they will continue with the agressive foreign policy on BBC World Service. I turned the radio off and over slept. But it still doesn’t stop me from thinking Michael Moore is a big fat stupid white man (It’s actually a title of a book I saw in the shop), although he is on “our” side. Did I just say that? Yup. Comedic, insightful, often right but still a big fat dude with an ego I can’t take. After ranting about liberal elitist snobs, I figure I might as well admit I can’t stand Michael Moore, although I am thankful he exists.
    But thanks for everyone who bothered to read the whole long rant. I apreciate it. 🙂
    yan

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  11. My Aussie friend in her 70’s said:
    “John Howard is the prime minister again. Worst of all, Bush was returned. The future looks really bleak. And I think I have lived long enough.”
    But as we all know Kerry and Bush are both hawks. The world is set to lose. I mean, look around, if you plan for a vacation in say SE Asia the uneasiness about personal safety does, rightly or wrongly, get on your nerves somehow.

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