U.S. Treated Saddam ‘Like a Cow’. Can you understand why I am depressed now?

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Cardinal Says U.S. Treated Saddam ‘Like a Cow’

I clicked onto the above headline. You know what? I saw a photo of someone look at Saddam’s teeth, and a Cardinal saying he feels sorry for the way the US government has treated Saddam Hussein. You know what? ME TOO.

I actually feel sorry for a dictator, and man who pretty stands for everything I hate in this world because the US government and the big corporate media has decided to humiliate him.

It disgusted me they showed the embattled bodies of his sons, with one of his leg bone in a plastic bag. Mark Hoback had a picture of that on his blog and under it, it read, “MY COUNTRY DOES NOT DO THIS.”

Yeah. Well you know what? I am not American, although I loved nearly all the time I spent in that country, and I love my friends and family there a lot.

You know what?

MY WORLD DOES NOT DO THIS.

MY WORLD DOES NOT DO THIS.

I don’t want to partake in any of this atrocity. I don’t want to partake in the media that does that.

Okay, mom. If you can’t understand why after about two months of working as a journalist I decided it was not for me. This is why.

I can’t actually do this.

I can’t actually stand in front of someone’s house whose lost their son and ask them how they feel about it.

I can’t wake up every morning participating in a profession that strings people up for ridicule and humiliation because this world is full or morons who want to read it.

And MY WORLD DOES NOT DO THIS.

My world does not destroy anything for no reason but power and money and pretend it’s not.

And for all my friends who never understood why I was even considering going back to the US and going to stay with a meth addict friend of mine. This is why.

Because all he ever wanted to do was to drop out of the system and he was the only person who knew how.

And after the whole thing with 911, I already knew everything was fucked and I wanted to drop out too.

I used to think Hippies were kinda losers, but I understand that impulse far to well lately.

And it’s true that depression is a choice for the person who said that to me. I know you are right and you called me on it, coz I choose to be sick so I don’t have to participate.

And this is why.

Everything is so wrong.

This really isn’t about being depressed. It’s about seeing it for what it is. Being horrified every day why people are so DUMB.

People can actually buy into this crap.

People actually ask “I don’t understand what’s going on?”

Well let me tell you the reason for this.

It’s just pure greed.

There.

GREED.

For more power. More money. More EGO.

On a personal, professional, Nation State level.

It’s so simple.

And I am totally embarrassed of the majority of people and the complete lack of maturity in anything. The way they deal with each other, the way they deal with consumption, the way they deal with poverty, and then even the way they deal with deposed dictators.

Sorry. It sucks to be smart. It always sucked to be smart.

Coz it takes a certain kind of intelligence to understand what is going on “out there” actually has ways of connecting back to “right here” which is you.

So many of my friends ended up so fucked up on drugs and alcohol they can barely string a sentence together in the worse moments, and a lot of them were the smartest people I ever knew. So many people I knew who were so bright who were the top notch in school and college ended up dropping out and doing nothing important in their lives. For so long, I couldn’t put the two together. Smart, Sensitive, Sweet equals Screwed Up. How?

I do now.

If you can see. You wouldn’t want to participate.

And I was always so damn optimistic that it was going to be okay, that I somehow missed the disillusion.

9 11 was the day I got depressed.

It was called a million different things, PTS, ADD, Depression, whatever.

It’s not.

It’s just disillusionment.

It’s finally going.

“You know what Yan? They were right.”

When so and so told you, “It’s not going to get any better.” and you didn’t believe them, and you kept saying, “No, if we all worked harder at it. we will win. I mean, think, hey, I am a woman and I don’t have my foot bound right? I can own a house in my own name right? See things change.”

I sorta realize they only give you those small winnings so they can take the bigger ones on the state control level.

Foucault was right. Orwell was right.

They give us the small happiness and victories so that we don’t see the bigger pictures.

I see it now.

Maybe it’s a leak.

Maybe it’s not just me who sees it.

I dunno.

I have to go to sleep because if I think about all what that picture signifies.

From both the side of who this man is, and from the side of who this man is captured by, and then all the ways the media is now co-opted that it’s just a propaganda machine. Not to mention the lives lost, the oppression, the lies, the human rights abuses, etc. etc. I might just have to throw up.

PS. Follow Up: US Treated Saddam Like a Cow

PPS. September 11th 2001 and a Generation Now Lost.

Published by Yan Sham-Shackleton

Yan Sham-Shackleton is a Hong Kong writer who lives in Los Angeles. This is her old blog Glutter written mostly in Hong Kong from 2003 to 2007. Although it was a personal blog, Yan focused a lot on free speech issues and democratic movement in Hong Kong. She moved to the US in 2007.

7 thoughts on “U.S. Treated Saddam ‘Like a Cow’. Can you understand why I am depressed now?

  1. Yan, remember that Saddam murdered and gassed millions of his own countrymen. The death penalty is too good for this man, he should be paraded around and humuiliated as much as possible – by his own country men. Destroy his image and legacy of fear, let the nation have a chance at a new beginning. Let them enjoy the freedom and oppourtunities you have.

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  2. I’m sure Saddam was loved by a few beings… like his cats (if he didn’t skin them alive ).
    I’m also sure Hitler had his cock sucked through and through by his playboy playmates.
    You wanna drop out of the system? Thank God!!!

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  3. Eye roll.
    Did I say I agreed with Saddam? No.
    Did I say the whole thing was bunk? Yes.
    Do I believe in human rights? Yes.
    Do I think public humilation is a violation of human rights? Yes.
    Do I believe just because someone did something atrocious we can then take away the basis ideas of dignity? No.
    You probably believe in the death penalty too. Which I don’t.
    True. I don’t want to be part of a system when those simple simple ideas are hard for people to comprehend.
    Sad state of affairs.
    And that playboy bunny comment was terrible. Truly. Not only from a historically and chronolgically wrong perspective. The image itself was sorta crass.
    Engage me properly if you have something to say. I apreciate it that a lot more, than descriptions of blow jobs as a way to prop up your argument.
    Talk.
    Instead of one up.
    Waste of time for all.
    Although you felt very clever when you wrote it. That was obvious.
    Yan

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  4. hello, i’m new to this, my brother, Max, linked me to this site, and i find it rather interesting.
    Here is my opinion on the Saddam Caputuring issue.
    This is crap.
    In my opinion, this is just one of Saddam’s many doubles.
    Nothing would profit the bush administration more than the capturing of Saddam these days. And Bush did exacly what he should have done…faked a Saddam, captured him, and re-established himself as a hero… there will never be proof of this Saddam being original… even if they give some crappy DNA tests on TV…the TV is controlled by the government…
    Capturing, not killing, Saddam has profited the US government the most… showing the face of the murderer to the masses.
    Now, the argument of “you started this war, but didn’t capture Saddam”, the argument of many Democrats, is invalid… this gives Bush a big boost in everything…
    Sorry to disappoint you, but because of this, and because of the public’s acceptance and ignorance… Bush will win the next election.
    A sad day for America…
    and showing those images on TV is terrible, and against international law… but ofcourse, CNN will say that they’re not “iniciating propoganda”…
    This is why i think that Saddam has been killed by the US already, a while ago… but a capture brings so much more publicity to Bush.
    Plus, if the TV says that those things were taken, you cannot believe in it. Even if they show DNA “proof” that it is indeed Saddam, you cannot trust it… the government controls the media, and Bush controlees the government.
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    It is against International law to plaster CNN & every newspaper with these degrading images of Saddam being picked over for lice, and showing footage of the hole where he was hiding in. In accordance with the Geneva Convention, as adopted in 1949, it is illegal to produce and distribute images of POWs for reasons of propaganda. I really don’t care, he seems to be a truly “evil” (however you percieve that word) person, and it couldn’t happen to a nicer guy; but, I don’t take any patriotic pride or pleasure in seeing him humiliated. And, all of these nationalistic high-school-pep-rally-like news conferences are making me sick. It’s sad, and the same thing could happen to you if the government decides to dislike you, or targets a group that you belong to. (that is, if you live in Gringolandia. )

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  5. Interesting ideas. I don’t know. But you are right. Just because it’s on TV doesn’t mean it’s the truth.
    But I am glad someone understood the tenants of the geneva convention and believe it too.
    Yan

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