Shop Really Closed. This SUCKS.

Riding With Hong Kong Street Racers

I did call Mike today. Thought maybe we could go for lunch. He is working in a place in Kowloon. A shop of his friends. Racing Zero is closed now. Completely. Wai has pulled out and there isn’t enough money to keep it open. The other partner, the fat guy, Mike said he ran off with all the money. Not all of it but a lot. Why do they do this to each other. Fuck people over for a fast buck.

So now he’s working 9am to 8pm. Which at least gives him a steady income. FUCK THIS SUCKS.

I feel so bad. I really feel so bad, bad, bad.

I hate it when things don’t go well for my friends.

He said every one is treating him Lun Tseug (dick inch) because of the ring thing. He was like “I don’t even know why I did that.” Coz he was desperate and stupid, I said. It’s a bad combination. He got 12 months probation. That’s okay I say. Not even bad.

Moments like this, I wonder why I do this to myself. Put up with sad things. Hang with people who don’t always have their life sorted out. Blah. Makes me wonder coz I feel real bad right now and I was having a really good day.

I knew this would happen if I called. But I hid for a few weeks already. I don’t even know if I did it for my writing on the films or that I felt bad for not being around when he is so cool. Probably both. Professional and Personal at the same time.

I don’t care. I am not going back to TW and hang with Fai and Candy so I can do this film. I am so sick of the dramas and the bullshit. I don’t want to hear them bitch about Mike, coz I will defend him and it puts me on the wrong side. It’s always about sides, whose crew you are with, who your big boy is, hierarchy and belonging. So little to genuine feelings.

I know Mike is in the wrong here.

He fucked up. But he is always straight up with me. I can’t say that for the rest of them.

If I do it again, it’s with a different group of people.